Well with sectionals behind me and thinking about regionals I’m now at a crossroads. On one hand I’m proud of what I was able to do at sectionals and am honored by the chance to move on to regionals. Yet on the other I’m doubting myself and questioning what my motivation is if I should go on to regionals. Preparing for sectionals was tough, and I wonder if I’m up to the task of carrying on the intensity needed to improve up until regionals. A part of me feels that I don’t stand a chance in Denver and that going is kind of pointless, because I know I like working out in my garage with my friends more then I do competing in crossfit events. The truth is that of the 60+ guys heading out to regionals only 4 will move on to the games and those individuals who don’t qualify will go home. Statistically I’ll be the ladder. I’m not opposed to going and that being my ultimate fate, but I’m hard pressed to feel as if I’ll be in more competitive shape once there, and this bothers me. A great part of me wants to give it everything I got up to regional’s and head to Denver feeling fast and strong, and hope the WOD’s just go my way. It’s the part of me that believes and looks forward to the “unknowable”, the part that drives me on and keeps me dreaming, but at what price?
I’m already feeling worn out with questionable injuries, I work 70-100 hours a week, I sleep less then 45 hours a week, have little to no money to spend and struggle with a waning social life that would only suffer more if I carry on my training in a fashion that I feel is necessary if I want to head out to Denver hoping to surprise people. I don’t know if I can carry on that commitment, nor do I know if that’s what’s best for me right now. I’m really wondering about what I should do with myself… but I think I know what I want to do, I’m just not sure. I know crossfit isn’t my life passion nor is it my purpose in life, but I carry on like it is lately and I would have to for another 2 months, more so then I ever have before in order to feel excited when I think about Denver. When I say 2 months it doesn’t seem too long, but I know it is when I look at everything else in my life held against it. 2 months is a long time, and a lot can happen. I just know time is something I don’t have much of lately. So we’ll see how it goes and I hope I make the right decision with this...
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Well with sectionals behind me and thinking about regionals I’m now at a crossroads. On one hand I’m proud of what I was able to do at sectionals and am honored by the chance to move on to regionals. Yet on the other I’m doubting myself and questioning what my motivation is if I should go on to regionals. Preparing for sectionals was tough, and I wonder if I’m up to the task of carrying on the intensity needed to improve up until regionals. A part of me feels that I don’t stand a chance in Denver and that going is kind of pointless, because I know I like working out in my garage with my friends more then I do competing in crossfit events. The truth is that of the 60+ guys heading out to regionals only 4 will move on to the games and those individuals who don’t qualify will go home. Statistically I’ll be the ladder. I’m not opposed to going and that being my ultimate fate, but I’m hard pressed to feel as if I’ll be in more competitive shape once there, and this bothers me. A great part of me wants to give it everything I got up to regional’s and head to Denver feeling fast and strong, and hope the WOD’s just go my way. It’s the part of me that believes and looks forward to the “unknowable”, the part that drives me on and keeps me dreaming, but at what price?
I’m already feeling worn out with questionable injuries, I work 70-100 hours a week, I sleep less then 45 hours a week, have little to no money to spend and struggle with a waning social life that would only suffer more if I carry on my training in a fashion that I feel is necessary if I want to head out to Denver hoping to surprise people. I don’t know if I can carry on that commitment, nor do I know if that’s what’s best for me right now. I’m really wondering about what I should do with myself… but I think I know what I want to do, I’m just not sure. I know crossfit isn’t my life passion nor is it my purpose in life, but I carry on like it is lately and I would have to for another 2 months, more so then I ever have before in order to feel excited when I think about Denver. When I say 2 months it doesn’t seem too long, but I know it is when I look at everything else in my life held against it. 2 months is a long time, and a lot can happen. I just know time is something I don’t have much of lately. So we’ll see how it goes and I hope I make the right decision with this...
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